Why is it so hard to keep this thing up?

I've been using blogger again, just for fun, and because I like it better, but even that has fallen by the wayside in recent weeks. I think it's mainly because I feel there's nothing happening in my life right now. I feel like I'm in a holding pattern. I'm hopeful about the future, but rather in the dark about my role in it, and how things will play out with regards to my (former?) hopes and dreams.

Is it my own fault? Probably. Unlike the way most movies present it, most of the things that happen to us, or don't happen to us, in life are a direct result of our own actions and choices. I have so many ambitions and hopes and visions for the future, and now I even have the means to attain them, but I still find myself paralyzed by boredom, fear and uncertainty. Isn't it ironic that when we are bored, we are even less motivated to do all the things we feel we're missing out on? I would find it funny if it wasn't so darned common in my own life.
But life plods on. And it's not all bad. It's just not been the greatest lately. Anna and I got sick with the flu, and even though I didn't get it as badly as some people, it was still highly uncomfortable and unpleasant for about three days. At least the recovery time has been swift. Anna dodged the worst of it. She got hit in the digestive system, but briefer than me, and she didn't get any of the fever.

My car's having problems now. Both our cars are, actually. Anna's needs a new catalytic converter, a new transmission speed sensor, new tires in the front, new brakes in the front, and a general tune-up. None of these things are dreadfully pressing, but they are just more of the little annoyances life throws at you to keep you on your toes. My car's exhaust system is failing, it seems. When I get up to high RPMs, the air flow backs up into the engine and causes stuttering power drops. It's far more annoying and inconvenient than it sounds, and I don't feel justified in starting to put money into a car that's barely worth $800 as is. Anna and I hope to get a new car to replace my Jeep in the next couple months. First we need to get her car running smoothly again, then we can worry about that.

Wow, I just sound like a complete Debbie Downer right now, don't I?
I'm trying to stay positive. I just need Christ, really. I need the Lord's strength, and I need our savior's forgiveness for the times I feel faint. (Hey that's a song.)

I'm watching through the tv show Andromeda, enjoying some of it. Anna and I have also been moving through Frasier, in order. We're in the middle of season 10 now, just 1 and a half left to go. Then we may finally watch seasons 5 and 6 of "24".Lost has started again, so I have that to keep up on. Jericho and Battlestar Galatica are returning in the relatively near future, and I plan to follow them closely as well. I miss The Office. I hope it comes back on for at least a little more of the fourth season, once the writer's strike is over (which it seems it may be soon). Hopefully the strike will be over quickly enough to not effect Jericho or Battlestar. It already cut Heroes short, which was unfortunate, but at least they managed to complete a coherent storyline for the truncated season 2.

I want to see Cloverfield again. For anyone who read my rave about it in my last post, you probably aren't surprised. It was just really cool, and there was so much to see, I feel it would be foolish to not experience it once more before it leaves the big screen. There are a couple movies coming out this month that I wouldn't mind seeing as well.

Speaking of movies, I really want a high-def display to watch movies on. Our TV isn't small--a 32 inch CRT--but it's far from up to my high standards. I've been waiting, partly because I've been broke, and partly because I've been waiting to see who wins the format war. Now, much to my annoyance, it appears that Blu-Ray will win the day, and I have to think about the future. I really like LCD tvs, but they are just so expensive, in the sizes I like. I've started seriously looking at DLP projection HDTVs. You can get a 56" DLP for the same price as or less than a 40" LCD. I have always disliked projection tvs because of their limited viewing range. It seems though that DLP has come far enough that viewing angles are much wider. I watched about 15 minutes of Transformers on a Mitsubishi DLP at a Frys a while back, and I was impressed.We'll see. In the end it's going to come down to how much money I have to spend, and other things need to come first...like a new car.

That's all I've got for now. That turned out to be longer than I expected.

Thoughts?